4-25-11

I am so very sorry for everything.

I wish she could see, since our contact stopped so abruptly, and so much has happened since then, I just had to put it out into the world how I felt about her, as well as my wishing to know her feelings for me. I'm so very sorry for ever causing her to feel anything but happiness, but I don't blame her. I deserve it for what all I've put her through and have done. I will respect her wishes of leaving her alone, if that is what she wants.

If I could tell her, I would just want her to please know and remember this:

I still do and always will unconditionally love her more than anything.

She has my promise of that to her in writing. I have been and will forever continue to do everything in my ability to become once again a person and father who she would want in her life, and who she can love again. I will do whatever it takes for the chance at her love and forgiveness: even if it means I must leave her alone while I get there. No matter what happens, or how long it takes, I will always be thinking of her and working toward becoming worthy of being in her life again.

I built my own success 20 years ago and I am even more determined for success now than I was then. I'll have success again and this time I won't blow it. I hope she can please keep an open mind toward the possibility of forgiving me because I won't cause her to regret it.

She is always in my heart and always invited into my life if and when she chooses.

If I could, I would tell her to please say her prayers and I hope she has a strong personal relationship with her Father in Heaven; that's so important. If I could, I'd tell her to "Take care of yourself and keep smiling: You're such a beautiful girl. I love you and this is not goodbye."

Love, Dad